with recent holiday news of my sister in law being pregnant (awesome) i had fallen into a little bit of a depression and still am trying to deal with these stupid girlie emotions. most of you who know me, know that i am having some hurdles to jump over to start a family. the more i am around children and hearing of friends and family getting prego, is really hurting my heart. i want nothing more than to have a family and be a mom. but the HP has other plans for me it seems and she hasn't run it by me yet! now, i don't by any means want to sound selfish, but for pete sakes this has been going on for 3 years and something needs to happen before i buy a patrillon puppies to fill the void!
as i watch all of my beautiful little cousins grow up and be as cute as they can be, i want to cry sometimes only because i would want my kids to grow up with them. unfortunately mother nature doesn't stop the growth process. i do know that one day, i hope, will be my turn and i can't wait (if you hadn't noticed!) but seriously, i am not getting younger and i don't want to start having kids when i am 40!! so i am on my last round of trying for a family this year and cross your fingers. not to hard, i don't want triplets!! i will also be joining weight watchers to get a hold of this up and down weight problem from being on hormones and being off of them and being depressed and so on. i have a really strong support system that i need to hold close, and not think that they are not around or don't have time for me, that's just me being silly!
so, here is to 2009 the year of nothing but goodness and joy for me and everyone around me. i love you all and thank you for listening. and an extra special thanks to the core support system i have, you know who you are, some of you have blogs too!!!
ta-ta! :)
nothing makes me happier than piggy slippers!!
3 comments:
I love you! You are wonderful! I'm excited for all of us!!
And, I will be joining the Weight Watchers extravaganza!!! (Remember when we were sloots? Now we are weight watchers!!! haha) My, how we age ;)
Really, though, I'm here for you and hopeful that however things work, they will make you happy!
yes you are wonderful! and we do love you! you just reach out and you have us all here like a cushiony pillow of love. :)
Can we please be slooty weight watchers? JT's Weight watching loves? Or something cuter than just weight watchers? please!
Rose, I just wanted to tell you that I think you are amazingly strong. Please don't think that I am just saying something to make you feel better, or anything like that. I really do think you are strong. I know that it must be hard to be around kids a lot of the time, and be wanting your own so very much. I know what a struggle that was for me, and you have been fighting for a long time for your family. But you manage to not only project a smile and a positive demeanor, you love the socks off those kids and their parents, too. And that is hard. And it makes you a strong person. I'm here for you, and I love you, and I pray for your family, I really do. Hang in there.
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