The Ranch!

HELLLLOOOOO!!!!

It is true, I am finally blogging after a month! To be honest it was a little tough at first being away from all, which is why no blogging cause I would see all of you here and it would make me a home sick. But now I am very okay with our move and love it. Besides ALL THE DAMN RAIN WE HAVE HAD!!! We have not had one complete day of sunshine without rain! All of June was a washout and so far it looks like the beginning of July is suckin it big time! But anyway, we are now 80% unpacked the other 20% is on our deck waiting for the rain to subside for us to go through it and store under deck. The ranch is coming along nicely though. My dad is summering here and it's great. Jason is working harder than ever! He is very happy here and is getting closer with his family. I as well am reconnecting with family and it is nice. But I do miss you all so much cause you're my family too.

And now for the part you have all been waiting for...........

This is Blitz!!! He is my baby boy! There will be more pics to come, these are the ones I have on the computer right now. He is 16 months old and is very stubborn at times! (not like Jay and I !!! LOL) He has brought a lot of joy in our lives. Along with some fur and dog smell when wet!! lololol!! He is VERY energetic! I tell everyone that if Jason was an animal Blitz is it! They are like two peas in a pod! Blitz follows Jay everywhere and is very sad when he leaves! Biltz and I are getting to know each other very well since we are home together for the most part. He pushes every button that can be pushed, and knows it! I am so happy to have him though. He is very good snggler when he wants to be! Oh, and yes he two different color eyes. One is marble blue and the other is brown. He is a catahoula leopard mix. You should google it, they are very interesting dogs. Nobody knows what he is mixed with, but from the description of his breed he fits it all! They are a hearding dag and when we are all outside if we aren't next to each other he comes running up and bumps you to get into a group! It's really cute and funny to see! When you first meet him, he will bark cause he's doing his job, but then you have to wait for him to come to you. And he will!! lol! He is a great dog! And I love him so!!

Other than all that things are good. The job hunt is still on, I have a few leads to follow up on this week. Cross your fingers. Since July is pretty packed for us and most of you we will be having a house warming gathering in August. Probably the first or second week. No later cause we want you all here soon!!! But you are invited to come whenever you want! I do hope all of you are doing well. An email or phone call won't hurt from time to time. Yes, I know I have been bad too, but I have been a little sad being out of the Bing. So call, text or email and I will reply or answer I swear! Hugs and kisses to you all, and please keep in touch, I know I will from now on. I just had to get over the hump of sadness for a minute. MISS YOU ALL LOTS!! LOVE YOU ALL LOTS MORE!!

~ta-ta :)

You have waited long enough!!

HELLLLOOOO!!!
I know I said I was going to do this a while ago, as KMC so nicely called me a liar! LOL! But ALOT has been going on in the life of Roja that I couldn't blog about most of it without physically telling you all first before you read it in a blog! Sooooo, where to begin............. well, we are unable to have children for sure. Unless I have a $10,000 surgery that may not even work. I am dealing ok with it slowly each day. And to help me get through it I am going to adopt all the puppies in the world! :)
As I sit here listening to JT, singing " I've been traveling on this road to long, the old me is dead and gone..." I can relate a skoonch...
so part two of news from the Roja, we are moving! Yup, sad but true. Jason has a TON of work that we can't say no to. And i can't keep having a wknd husband. So, it took us a few months to really think about it, like adults!! Which by the way: BEING AN ADULT SUCKS SOMETIMES!! Some decisions hurt so much to make, but those are the ones that will be worth the sacrifices you made to get there. APMZ you were right, to be 10 again for a week would rock!! But it is going to be a really good move us. Every move we have made has been without a thought and ALWAYS out of nowhere! And this time it was different, we thought it out and made actual plans! I know I am freaking myself out too! lol!
So I see myself relating to the song above because: we are tired of traveling for work and making not good decisions, and the old me isn't really dead and gone, the adult me is just now taking its turn. We see everyone raising their families, buying houses and just starting off in life and we are now ready to start our own. A little selfish, but, hey, it's time to be selfish. And what makes this move the absolute hardest for me personally is that I love each and everyone of you like you are my family. You all have made me who I am right now and I love it! But we aren't moving to like California, so call us like you would if we were here, we'll be there in a minute(or 90) This has to be one of the places that has helped me move forward. And no words can ever say how grateful i am.
Enough mooshie stuff! Where we are moving to has 3 aces of land!!!!! And the biggest porch in the world! I saw it in person and I felt at peace when I opened the door! I have never had that feeling when we moved. We get to have a dog, which I have one but it is at my bro-in-laws house. And we want you all to come and visit! Bring your tents for sure! Plenty of room! I might set my tent up just because! lol!
Niagara Falls was the most beautiful site I have ever seen!! There are a million pics, but I have to learn the new camera and upload them. So stay tuned for pics.
Oh and the best part of moving to Monticello, is that we are actually moving to Monticello!!! No more " "!!!! I think I spilled the beans on everything we are doing, sorry took so long to blog, but as you have read we are a little crazy right now!
Amen Michael Franti, "be who you are nothing more nothing less"
Ta-Ta :)

To long!!

Hello my fellow bloggers! It has been a very long time since I have blogged and I apologize! I am going to have a HUGE blog this weekend. I am busy with life right now, but I will not deprive you any more! (lol) So keep you eyes out for the biggest blog ever! (maybe not the BIGGEST)
I do love you all and enjoy reading your blogs, I hope mine will be as interesting for your reading delite. Have a great week and enjoy the sunshine.
ta-ta :)

Twitter.....

i have been gone a while from blogging and do have alot to write about, but first i must know... what is a Twitter??? i have seen it everywhere and people are using it but i don't know what it is. could someone please school me on what it is?? thanks :) i will post more over the weekend! ta-ta! :)

Waiting......

I try to be a patient person, but sometimes I just can't help myself but be antsy!! I have been dreading my doctors appointment for today, but also wanting it to just be over with, when all of a sudden, I got a call and had to reschedule for two weeks from now! So for whatever reason I now have to wait longer!!! OY!! I do appreciate all the good thoughts and hugs I've received in general and towards this appointment, so I will hold on to them for two more long ass weeks! Life is funny and we have to just roll with the punches, hoping it doesn't hurt to much. That's all I have for now, maybe moe later! Ta-Ta! :)

Day of Love....

That is a yummy dinner made by me and hubby!! It is called chicken linguine and is sooooo delicious!! Mushrooms sauteed in red wine, shredded chicken, onions, monterrey jack cheese, chicken broth and sour cream!! So very filling and only 6pts. per serving. (for the w.w. ladies) It was a great day of enjoying each others company. We didn't buy a cheesy gift for one another or get sucked in to buying a card. Instead we both sat down and wrote one another a really lovely letter and read them before dinner. It was the best Valentine's Day ever! I have an amazing hubs and today was just another day for me to see that! Hope you all had a great day enjoying loved ones company without all the broo-ha-ha. ta-ta! :)

W.W.

a little good news came my way last night to try to cheer me up after a horrible blow on monday. i have reached my 5% weight loss and have lost a total of 11 pounds!! woohoo! i am so excited and can feel the effects of losing weight. like baggy pants and tightening the belt. it is all great. i am not going to go a stray because that would be bad, but i will need some support! so if i call some of you saying i want to eat an entire pizza, say ok is that what you really need?! tough times right now, but i won't take it out on food. more later.

sheets...

why is it even though my bed is near the heat and the covers are covering the bed, that the sheets are so flippin cold when i crawl into bed???? you get all ready to snuggle up and BAM!
-10 degree sheets! now you are wide awake and can't fall asleep until you thaw! after bundeling up you are now sweating to death! what an endless cycle of hot and cold bed sheets!!
(hey, this blog is called random thougths!!)
ta-ta! :)

life.

as i sit here not being able to sleep, i am wondering what is really important to me in life right now. i know for sure that family and friends are number one. that is not even a question. without them it would make anybodies life difficult i think.
my job is going pretty good. i have received a raise and am able to become more involved with Habitat by being on boards and helping with major fundraisers and events. it feels good to be doing what i do and i hope i can do it forever. but it is never going to be full time and there is no room for advancement, so i need to take that into consideration. so i am opting to get a second job in the non-profit field (of course!) at the boys and girls club. so i can have two part time jobs to make one full time job. i don't do what i do to one day be rich, i do it to see the look on peoples faces when i am able to help them out in their tough times. although money wouldn't hurt! ;) i have to pay bills somehow! but really, i feel satisfied in my heart and know that for all the help i have received in my life i am trying to pay it forward with the work i do. so that is another thing important to me in my life right now.
my health is another important thing. as with many people, having good health is key. i am so thankful i have joined ww, i have lost 7.6lbs in two weeks!! yay! it helps to write everything down so you own up to what you are eating. i have moved my belt to a smaller notch and my jeans are getting big!!! i even feel a little better with these few pounds off. my lungs are getting better i hope. i was told as long as i keep taking my meds i will no longer be at risk for emphysema. i was told i may have it from the condition my lungs were in before the meds, how scary is that!! i am to young to have that! so i buckled down and started taking my meds and not skipping a day. i want to live to see all these cute kids grow up! children in my future may not happen, things are getting worse not staying better like they were. i think i am slowly becoming sort of ok with not having kids. there is always puppies to adopt. and of course children. i see my doc next week again to have the all important, nerve racking talk of what next. whatever happens it must be for a reason. i hate that saying more than anything, but it makes sense!! the HP must have other things in life for me to do.
i am missing some family members dearly at this point in life, so near some far. but i know one day we will be brought together again. i have an amazing husband who no matter how bad things get he is always my rock to lean on and always knows how to make me feel better. i am so glad the HP brought him into my life! even though at times i want to ring his neck, but everything in life can't be lollipops and sunshine.
i wish everyone the best for 2009 and on. i hope all your lives are filled with love, happiness and nothing short of goodness and health.
ta-ta! :)

I AM SO PROUD!!!

OUR NEW AND AMAZING PRESIDENT!!!! YAY AMERICA!!!

YAY OBAMA!!!

so i just watched oprah, and normally i don't, but today it was all about our new president so i had to! all i have to say is OMG!!!! i have never in my life felt so excited about our president and what he will do for our country then i do with Obama. i must admit this is only my second election to have voted, and boy i have never been so proud to vote this year. i really do feel that he is going to change america by helping us see what we can do to change ourselves. oprah, with all of her powers, has collaborated this beautiful song called America's Song, and for pete sakes it makes you all teary!! There is no video so i am unsure how to link it but if you go to oprah.com you can download it for free for today only. even if you don't want to download it, just listen to it and you will be proud you live in this country. that's all for now, i have to upload some pics of my very first chili attempt and it was amazing!!! kristina you have inspired me to cook more! and eat more since your blog is always so yummy!! :)
ta-ta!! :)

thank you....

after posting my last blog i have received and overwhelming response of love! and i didn't want an "oh pity me" kind of thing, what i got was pure love and support from people who i should have been leaning on in the first place. i may have been keeping it in to long, and not really using my amazing friends and family for support. that is just silly because i have a great support system!
i don't really make new years resolutions but i am now! as of 2009 i will NOT keep everything in and i WILL utilize the love and support of my family and friends. no more being silly about it by thinking they don't have time or wouldn't want to be bothered. so get ready to see and hear from me more often!!!
ta-ta! :)

it's been to long...

well it has been way to long since my last post!! sorry for all you hard core roja followers! lol!! i have been doing a ton of thinking and couch potatoing and yes even cheetos (karli they are my weakness!!) and felt the way some of you have ....and now its time to get up and stop feeling so damn sad!!!

with recent holiday news of my sister in law being pregnant (awesome) i had fallen into a little bit of a depression and still am trying to deal with these stupid girlie emotions. most of you who know me, know that i am having some hurdles to jump over to start a family. the more i am around children and hearing of friends and family getting prego, is really hurting my heart. i want nothing more than to have a family and be a mom. but the HP has other plans for me it seems and she hasn't run it by me yet! now, i don't by any means want to sound selfish, but for pete sakes this has been going on for 3 years and something needs to happen before i buy a patrillon puppies to fill the void!

as i watch all of my beautiful little cousins grow up and be as cute as they can be, i want to cry sometimes only because i would want my kids to grow up with them. unfortunately mother nature doesn't stop the growth process. i do know that one day, i hope, will be my turn and i can't wait (if you hadn't noticed!) but seriously, i am not getting younger and i don't want to start having kids when i am 40!! so i am on my last round of trying for a family this year and cross your fingers. not to hard, i don't want triplets!! i will also be joining weight watchers to get a hold of this up and down weight problem from being on hormones and being off of them and being depressed and so on. i have a really strong support system that i need to hold close, and not think that they are not around or don't have time for me, that's just me being silly!

so, here is to 2009 the year of nothing but goodness and joy for me and everyone around me. i love you all and thank you for listening. and an extra special thanks to the core support system i have, you know who you are, some of you have blogs too!!!

ta-ta! :)

nothing makes me happier than piggy slippers!!